Lack of Sleep .

Mood : Sleepy

I stayed up the whole night chatting . I think there's something wrong with me . I'm gonna sit for my Accounts paper tomorrow and here I am , blogging because I'm so darn bored .

Although I was chatting with only four people , but MSN was so laggy I felt like throwing my monitor out the window .

I am hungry and sleepy . I'm gonna throw a tantrum soon . That's what happens when I lack food and sleep at specific times . Since I'm so bored and Jon isn't replying me on MSN , I might as well blog about something .

Last Saturday I went to Sunway Pyramid with Jon , Mun Choong , Zheng Kai , Ee Lyn and my sis . I was supposed to watch High School Musical 3 with my sis but Mun Choong already bought my ticket for Madagascar : Escape 2 Africa . My sis and Jon already watched it the week before with my mum , but they had no choice but to watch the movie as well . Think about it , what is a 19 year-old guy and an 11 year-old girl gonna do for almost 2 hours in Sunway Pyramid together ? So Mun Choong queued up again to get tickets for my sis and Jon . Soon after , he appeared with three tickets in his hands . Note that before I arrived , he bought 4 tickets for the four of us (Kai , Ee Lyn , me and himself) . He was supposed to buy two more but ended up buying three . Stone . So each of us had to pay 2 bucks for his mistake . Well done Mun Choong ! (mc , if you're reading this , don't get angry okay , i'm just kidding about the 'well done' part) Other than that , we didn't do much except argue , showed faces at each other and mock each other (mostly among mc , kai and i) . They left around 6 PM and left me , my sis and Jon at Pyramid . So we bought Ramune and watched ice-hockey :)

I am tanned ):

Oh and about today , I went to Aeon Bukit Tinggi to watch Twilight . It was like what I expected it would be . Pleasurable (because of the Cullens) , but without the Oomph ! . I was bored to tears during the beginning , up until the 'baseball' scene . Once Supermassive Black Hole by Muse started playing during their baseball match , I was snapped back into my active mode and enjoyed the movie from then on . The book , was much better . Though I wouldn't mind watching the movie all over again .

After the movie , I went walking around Jusco and stopped by F.O.S. for a moment . I saw a nice top in two different colours and proceeded to try it on .

My outfit before I tried on the F.O.S. tops .

This is the first one , it's grey but still transparent .

The second one was white and I really liked it , but this one is transparent as well .

I wanted to buy the top 'cause I really liked it and it costs Rm25 only . But I didn't 'cause it was too see-through ):

Ohmygawd look at those rings around my eyes . When I lack sleep . Ahhhh ..

I'm gonna go shower then go out with Jon already . Thanks for reading this stupid post which has no Oomph ! to it .

Happy Birthday Wing Jian !

Mood : Bored

Happy 17th birthday to you Ah Wing (can I call you Jian ? sounds cooler ) , I mean , Jian ! I apologise for anything I've said that made you unhappy before ):

But anywho , you've only got one more subject to go so do your best aight ? I know you can get an A1 for Accounts , seeing that you've put in so much effort during Puan Siva's classes . Oh , and good luck with Elaine too !

Remember this pic ? It rocks my socks even until now ! Ha ha ! It was taken two years ago during your birthday and Mirshal's remember ? Seeeeeeeee the shiny lil' effect I added onto your ear ? Ha ha ! Too bad I'm not in the pic . Only the two birthday kids are , and some Sri KL girls at the back D:

Again , Happy Birthday ! Glad that we could still be friends , after like , a year ? :)

Happy Birthday Mirshal !

Mood : High

Happy 17th birthday Mirshal Lourdusamy ! We've known each other for what , six years already . I miss you so damn effing much lah weih ! Miss the times we had together . I love you and you know it :)

From left to right : Natalie , Ann , Sheryll , Ka Reen , Mirshal , Me , Elyna @ Pyramid's Toilet 2007

PS : Duh , of course I remembered your birthday lah . Not like youuuu !

Procrastination .

Mood : Amused

I was chatting with Zheng Guan last night about some random topic which I can't recall . I only remember this part .

ZG : What are you doing ? Not studying I hope .
Me : Yeah , I'm not . Lazy lah , study tomorrow only lah .
ZG : You've got a good future . As a procrastinator .

I really hate procrastinating . And I hate procrastinators as well . But I can't really kick the habit . I have my Principle of Accounts paper on Monday and my Commerce paper on Wednesday and I'm sitting in front of the PC either blogging , Facebook-ing , Friendster-ing , MySpace-ing or chatting . Plus , I'm gonna go out to some shopping mall later . I doubt I would have time to study , heck , I haven't finished reading my Form 5 Commerce text book yet .

Instead of studying , I was watching Speed Racer . And gawd is he cute .

Emile Hirsch aka Speed Racer .

But Rain is even cuter . I only watched this movie to see Rain (Jeong Ji-Hun) . Especially when he was conversing in English ! Ahhhh , so adorable .

Jeong Ji-Hun also known as Rain . I've been a loyal fan since like , forever :)

Jon was *ehem* kind of , how should I put this , jealous that I kept on ogling at Emile and Rain when he was beside me watching the movie as well . So , just to let him know that he's cuter (and hotter) than Emile and Rain .

See see ! Cute right ? I don't know what's up with the bath robe though :)

PS : I just called the boy and woke him up from his beauty sleep . I don't know what in the world he's doing now . I think he went back to sleep .

PPS : I know I'm supposed to be studying .

Fucking Emo Post .

Mood : Aggravated

This post consists of sensitive issues regarding certain people . I will not mention names . But each paragraph portrays different situations and people . It depends on what I feel like talking about . Each paragraph is not related to each other , except for the last one . It's like , the conclusion for this post . Initially , I wanted to blog about all the happy events that happened today . But I'm not in the mood for it right now .

You know what , I was in such an excellent mood 45 minutes ago . But now , I think I am gonna explode any minute out of aggravation . Is it so hard to leave me alone ? Is it ?! All I want to do now is stay away from you . Far far away . As far away as possible so that I won't face frustration every single day , hour , minute , second . I hate this . Hate it hate it hate it so damn fucking much . I know what I'm saying now will hurt you but I have no choice . I am going to break down any second now and I can't help it . What I feel like doing right now is walk right out of my house , and stand under the rain . The tiny drops of rain plummeting to the ground , I assume , might understand how I feel and could easily act as a disguise for my tears .

Sometimes I feel that I always mix around better with guys . Most girls tend to listen to my problems and will actually remember what I have told them . I'm not saying that it's not a good thing , it is . But when a misunderstanding forms between me and that certain girl , those problems would be brought up again and I , for one , will be the talk of the town . I hate it so bloody fucking much . What's more , she will spread it around till the whole of Kampung Kemuning knows about it . Even the kay-poh aunties . This is when all I want to do is find my guy friends like Marcus , Zheng Kai and Mun Choong to just hang out . I admire them . They can be so carefree and not care about all these petty things . Well , to them it's petty . They can take away my negative thoughts and such by making me smile and laugh .

About a week ago , I had a minor argument with my mother . I was so pissed I stormed out of the house and walked all the way to Marcus' house . Note that I left the house around 7.15 PM . I reached his house at almost 8 PM . Do note too , that I walk at a really slow pace . I entered his not-so-little abode and proceeded to just hang out with him in his room . I never did feel awkward sitting alone with another guy in his room . It depends on who the guy is also lah . On that night , I was supposed to go lepak with Kai but since I was already a few doors away from his house , I simply called him to come over to Marcus' whenever he feels like it . He appeared not long after and we just ... chilled . I almost fell asleep on Marcus' bed because it was so soft . And the interior , heavenly emo-ish . But yeah , if I was given the chance to choose between , A. hanging out in a friend's (doesn't matter if the person's a male or female) house or B. hanging out in shopping malls spending money on unnnecessary items and wasting my precious time , I would rather choose option A ten times more than option B .

I don't know why I'm feeling so depressed lately . Many probably don't know that I am such a sad person , a pessimist . The only song that can make me cry is The Man Who Can't Be Moved by The Script . It just carries so much meaning inside of the song . I can listen to that song a hundred times on repeat mode and not get bored . Am I suffering from depression ? I can't sleep every night . I keep on thinking of things which I should not even be bothered about .

Why is it when I first laid eyes on that image , my mood was dulled with immediate effect ? I am actually feeling very very hesitant about my current situation . I have never felt this hesitant in making choices . I've been thinking a lot about myself lately . I'm not even bothered about what I'm going to do when SPM ends . I just want to feel happy . But I can't . I can at times , but not all the time . I feel that I'm such a miserable person and ... I think I'm thinking too much . But after all that I have gone through , I can't take any chances . I feel so paranoid . I feel like I'm a hypocrite . I hate this .

I am so grateful that I have friends who care for me in a way that I can't describe . I'm not gonna mention names , you know who you are . Without the all of you , I don't think I would even be here right now . I love helping my friends out . Yet , I can't even put myself out of my own misery .

I miss these two in my life . Things aren't like how it used to be .

PS : Happy Tears by Sweetbox is fucking emo . Emo song . Emo emo emo . Fuck emo . But I love the song . Do ignore me .

Lala's and Epic Zheng Guan

Mood : Sleepy

I worship this guy man . Go read the post about the lala's .

PS : He's Puan Leong's son :)

Thriving Ivory .

Mood : Vibrant

I am feeling so up and about today ! I don't wanna say why though . People might misunderstand and think why in the world am I feeling so happy about this kinda bullshit . Ha ha . I had no mood to study at all . I am so gonna get my hair cut this weekend . Mannnn , I love him :)

Tagged by Shyuan .

Mood : Full

Dear Shyuan.
I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm in love with your sister. I think I realized it when I saw the shrunken head at the mental hospital and I saw you sit on the crazy monk. I'm sure you're frostbitten enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep my virginity as a memory. You should know that I always wanted to break our friendship.

Go and drown yourself.
-Denise-
P/S: You are so lifeless, smelly armpits.

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog).
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I’m sure you’re ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I’m returning ___8___ to you, but I’ll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___.
-Your name-
P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___,


1. What’s the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’ll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn’t match
Grey - You’re a pervert
Yellow - I’m selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You’re a loser
Other - I’m in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - your dwarf bit me
April - I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - you put cuffs on me
July - I threw up
August - I saw the shrunken head
September - we skinny dipped
October - I quoted Santa
November - your dog ran amok
December - I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women’s clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What’s the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What’s the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United’s goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I’ve felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn’t exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we’re cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I’m allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I’m open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What’s the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David’s tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

13. What is your favorite activities when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks - Ugly pig
Foosball - Silly duck
Shopping - French kisser
Dulging for food - Cranky banana
Movies - Smelly armpits
Snacks - Horny wolf
Snooker - Tiny nipples
Bowling - Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities - Vain pot
Having a long talk - Nose plucker
Taking pictures - Dumb bitch
Other - Burn yourself

I'm tagging
- hui xian
- justina
- bryant
- marcus
- melissa
- yi ting
- pavitra
- zheng guan (yes , you , Puan Leong's son)

I Am So Effin' Happy .

Mood : Ecstatic

Went out to Sunway Pyramid today with Dum dum Jon , my sis , MC , Kai and Ee Lyn . I was really happy . If I have the time , I shall blog about it tomorrow :)

Farah Amirah's 16th Birthday .

Mood : Hungry

I was invited to Farah Amirah's birthday party at TGI Friday's Sunway Pyramid on the 8th of November . I was too lazy to take pictures of the food we had , but I assure you that what we had for lunch that bright Saturday afternoon was effing fattening . But do I give a shit ? Of course not ! We were served three appetizers , three main courses , one birthday cake , one dessert and bottomless beverages . For me , it was food heaven . Despite how fattening the food was (appetizers were like mac n' cheese , main course more mac n' cheese with chicken , fish and chips and some other stuff) , I enjoyed every single bit of it . Plus , I have to give credit to the excellent service by TGIF's crew .

Thus , time for the pictures !

Trust me , there were more people . It's just that they left earlier .

Yi Zhong , the birthday girl , me and Ann right before we left TGIF .

Dum dum Jon and I . See the contrast ? He's wearing white , I'm wearing black . He's fucking fair . I'm fucking tanned .

Yi Zhong and I . Somebody tried to get his/her face into the picture but failed .

Apek and I . My first ever picture taken with this dude . He was one of those who made me a happy piggy that day !

I absolutely love this angle .

Aforesaid , we were at Sunway Pyramid and since we were stuffed full with macaroni and cheese , we might as well try to burn off those carbs by , yes , shopping ! Well , not literally . Just window shopping . Hence , more pictures !

Yi Zhong was tempted to snap a quick shot of these lala-muis . We had a plentiful of eyesores that day . Plenty of lalas , plenty of tween girls dressing like as if they were ten years older .

Me and Yi Zhong trying on some dresses in Nichii . Frankly speaking , I didn't really like the clothes there . The dress that the dear girl picked out for me however , was stunning (yes , the pink one) . My dress size was XS . Yes , you heard me right .

Please do not misunderstand . Mummy was shopping for sexy lingerie while Yi Zhong and I took the oppurtunity to rest our blistered feet . I can't remember which shop we were in though .

Credits to Yi Zhong . I actually like this dress more than the dress I bought for prom .

He doesn't look that tall in the picture . But trust me , I always have a hard time trying to communicate with him comfortably . It gets kinda tiring when you have to incline your head 45 degrees to look at the boy everytime you engage in a conversation .

The three of us in a stuffy dressing room in some boutique .

Us . In the toilet . Yes . Of all places .

Camwhores . They can become a whore for the camera any day , any time , anywhere .

Not that this has anything to do with our Pyramid outing , but credits to Bryant Koh for sending me this picture of a burning History Seminar paper . You just made my day :)

Well , Fuck You .

Mood : Fucking PISSED

Forget everything that I said to you last night . I didn't mean any of it . About your letter , I doubt it is even real . You probably had nothing better to do and decided to make me cry . I fucking hate you . Get out my life and get a stinkin' life of your own .

PS : I'm sorry for all the profanities . I'm just in the midst of anger now .

PPS : Actually , why do I even care ? Somebody save me from my misery . I can't wait to spend time with Nephew and Mc .

Liar .

Mood : Betrayed

I know I should not feel this way but your actions are pissing me off .

"x tahu nak ajak sape .
nak ajak u .
comfirm u xnak .
tp if u nak gi boleh i jadi cikgu gym u .
hehehe"

What . The . Fuck . Are you trying to prove ? Since you've already found so many other girls on your MySpace , do me a fucking favour and get the fuck out of my life . Is that so hard to do ? It is such a simple request yet you fail to accomplish it . Yes , I appreciate you being nice to me , but treating me like as if I'm the only person on your mind is not going to make me treat you the way you want to be treated if you are flirting like a cheap bastard behind my back .

It's not that I care . It's just that if you want to play it this way , then fucking butt out of my life and get your own . Stop treating me like as if you still have feeling for me and just show the world your playboy side . I don't want to be associated with you in any way anymore .

Again , get the fuck out of my life .

Add. Maths , You Can Fucking Kiss My Ass Goodbye .

Mood : Happy

Pendidikan Moral made my day ! Add. Maths 2 screwed it up for me in the beginning but I'm happy with my Moral paper . I'm gonna miss Puan Faizah . I can't believe I'm saying this .

Without Further Ado ...

Mood : Ecstatic

He bought Eclipse and Breaking Dawn for me . Eclipse being the hard cover version . Oh . My . Gawd . I can't believe half the day I spent with him passed by so quickly . I'm missing him already .

Untitled

Mood : Sick

My right ear hurts thanks to my piercing but it doesn't matter . I like pain . To me , pain is pleasure . That's why I can't stop getting piercings and inflicting damage on myself . Plus , I'm gonna get a tattoo soon .

I went for tuition from 2 till 6 PM today and boy am I drained . My brain ain't functioning properly already .

Some people have been pissing me off lately . They would never know because they happen to be one of the most unexpected people for me to be angry with . I don't mind losing them as friends . Their presence won't do me any in the future anyway .

I have added another person to my 'Trustable Friends' list . So that makes four ! It doesn't matter how long I have known them . Most of them whom I have known for many years never did gain my trust (I doubt they even want to) . They prefer to become hypocrites and bitch about me behind my back .

At least I've got my Dir en grey to make my day !

PS : I want to thank Mun Choong for being considerate about my feelings and sent me a South Park video to watch . I know he loves me :D

The FUCK ?!

Mood : Used

Mark my words , I will remember what you have said . How dare you put the blame on me when it's so fucking obvious you were the fucking asshole . Just get the hell out of my life . I am never gonna talk to you ever again .

Three Sujects Down , Seven More to Go .

Mood : Unhappy

Bahasa Melayu was kinda easy . English , no need to say lah . But History .. ohmyfuckinggawd that paper took it's one way ticket to hell :(

I came out early anyway since my head was blank . Duhh .


Yay !

Pyramid Before SPM .

Mood : Tired

It's what , two days before SPM and I can still go out to Sunway Pyramid and shop like as if it's after SPM . Okay , not really shop lah . Jalan-jalan and teman my friends and mum shopping . I am so effing tired , I'm too lazy to blog much . My mum planned to go to One Utama to watch High School Musical 3 but since Farah invited me to her mini birthday party at TGI Friday's Sunway Pyramid , we changed our plan and went there instead .

The people invited were me , Yi Zhong , Ann , Apek , Zaid , Myira , Safril , Amad , Din and a few of her Subang friends . Jonn came too . He replaced Aida .

Picture snapped by Din . Credits to him ! Picture includes (from left to right) Yi Zhong , dumdum Jonn , Ann , yours truly . Credits too , to Jonn's super clear iPhone image :)

There are many other pictures of course (the camwhores we are) but I'm too lazy to post them up tonight . Tomorrow perhaps , once Yi Zhong sends me the hundreds of pictures in her phone .

After Farah's awesome TGI lunch , we went window shopping and all sorta craps lah . That's what girls do ! Will post them up soon .

Credits to Jonn . He took this picture of me while I was eating . Dum dum Jonn and his oh-so-awesome iPhone .

Yi Zhong , Ann and I trying on some prom dresses :)

Uhhh ..

Mood : Sleepy

Umm .. I am so sleepy right now . I only wanna say that I won't have much time to blog anymore (I don't know how many times I've been mentioning this here) . SPM is just around the corner and I don't wanna spend too much time writing nonsense over here . Oh , and my PC is fixed . Reformatted and added a new graphic card . Yippee ! Sooo yeah . Good night to all and especially yo my gorgeous Fernando <3

My knight in shining armour <3

Great Sushi , Big Disappointment .

Mood : Full

Papa brought us out to Sunway Pyramid to celebrate Barack Obama's victory . He bought us a scrumptious dinner .

We ate at Sushi Zanmai . I stuffed myself full till I could barely walk .

I headed off to Popular to buy New Moon , but was very disappointed when Popular only had Twilight and Breaking Dawn .

While waiting for my sister when she was in the restroom , Tan Boon Heong walked past me . I was stoning . My siblings didn't notice until I pointed it out to them . Believe me , he looks way taller than he does on TV (slightly taller than Chwan Chong) . I wanted to snap a picture with him but he walked off so quick . Missed such a good chance !

He wasn't smiling like that . But he still looked adorable with his blur face :)

Holy Fucking Shiet , Obama WON !

Mood : Excited

Yes , people . Obama is the USA's next President ! Woo hooooooo !

Actually I wanted to blog about Robert Pattinson . Well , not literally . I just wanted to post up smexyh pictures of him . Yi Zhong and I have watched Twilight's trailer three times in a row with her . Conclusion ? She's going head over heels for Robbie dearie . Haha ! She's giggly all over . All the 100x100 images are for Pavitra dear . Just snatch them if you want 'em . If anyone else wants 'em , tell me first yeah , then you can take 'em :)






My personal faves .










All these above were selected by Yi Zhong . She's madly in love with him lah . Crazy girl . Another Robert Pattinson fan . Sigh . I don't find them that attractive though ;)

I so wanna smooch him here . I wanna smooch Robert Pattinson . Not Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen :)

And here ! Ohmyfuckinggawd the smex !

Dedicated to Pavitra Kurup .