Maybe It's Just Me.

Listening to: New World by L'arc~en~Ciel

I wish that I could get out of the house before everyone is awake and come back home once everyone is sleep.

I wish that you would just be there for me when I need you.

I wish that you would just don't pretend.

I wish that you would be that person I once knew.

I wish that I could tell you everything.

I wish that you would just call me.

I wish that you would have more time for me.

I wish that I am aware of whatever the fuck I am doing.

I wish that we were strangers again.

I wish life were that simple.

My Beloved.

Listening to: Casting Dice by Kanno Youki (Amatsuki OST)

PC aku dah pulang kepadakuuuuuuu! I missed using my PC so much. I missed the awesome music blasting from my beloved speakers. Ahhhhh the comfort I seek in thou, my PC.

Okay, that's all I'm updating about today. Good night :p

I am so hungry I wanna eat egg tarts from Canton-i! Drooooooool.

Self-Control Ahhhhhhh.

Listening to: NO MUSIC I LIKE IN MY BRO'S PC!

Sometimes I ask myself if I have self-control. I am not so sure myself 'cause my level of self-control depends on what I have to control myself doing. Ha ha.

I guess most of you know that when it comes to me and drinking, I can't control shit. But when it comes to everything else, controlling myself is much more easier.

This assignment practically killed my brain cells. It wasn't because it was tough. It was because I can never go out and do assignment with friends. It took me roughly 10 hours to complete this assignment when I could have done it in 3 hours. I think.

*OP: Meet in SS15 at 2 PM.
**WH: Ended up waiting for Angie (again) at college until 3.30 PM.

OP: Do work in SS15.
WH: Ended up in McD Taipan.

OP: Finish work in McD Taipan.
WH: Finished work in Star Cafe, USJ 9. Don't ask me how I managed to do it there, of all places.

OP: Complete assignment before 12 AM.
WH: Completed assignment at 2 AM. And I was the earliest to finish lol.

OP: Everyone goes home.
WH: Jovi & Tanzy slept outside my house.

Only thing that went right that night was that we went to play L4D after we completed our work. Which was a big mistake 'cause I ended up with a killer migraine the next day in class and had to leave during break. I think my lecturer hates me.

*Original Plan
**What Happened

WOWWWWWW.

Listening to: Nothing. My bro's PC has sucky music.

It's been like forever since I last updated my blog. That's because I was busy (:

Not only that but my PC crashed and now the only usable PC in the house is my brother's. Which, of course, everybody fights for. And at the end of the day, my mum gets to use it 'cause she is our mother after all.

But once she gets hold of it she sticks to it for a few hours playing Facebook applications. OHMYG.

I need to get my PC fixed.

Nah I update already. Short and boring, I know. Just give me some time I'll post up a picture or two soon!

Stereotyped.

Listening to: The Hell Song by Sum 41

Two nights ago, I was at Hartamas with a few friends.

Jovi : Denise, how often do you go to clubs? I'm sure you go damn often wan.
Tanzy: Yeah, she go damn often.
Me : I never step foot in a club before.

Jovi's jaw dropped. Me and Tanzy laughed. No, seriously. I have never step foot into a club before.

But I can't believe nobody believes me every time I say I don't club and have never been in a club before! Is it so unbelievable? Kena stereotype already );

Eff Off Please.

Listening to: When You Believe by Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston

It's been a long time since I last went to church. A few days ago, I was having a conversation with a good friend of mine on MSN.

A : B asking me whether you still going to church a not.
Me: Lol. Then what did you say?
A : I said I don't know. But I told them you got go church with friends once in a while.
Me: Oh, okay.
A : B told me, they always ajak you go church but you always cannot make it. Lol.
Me: Huh? B never text me at all. ... ...
A : No meh? B said they got call you wor.
Me: Goddammit, NO!

Hello, B? Can you please stop telling A that you ajak me go church when you actually didn't contact me for, say, almost 2 months already? And then you tell him that I always not free to go to church?! Like wtf please? Please don't overdo it (not that I can do anything about it, but yeah). Now I lagi don't feel like going to church.

It Is an Extremely Small World.

Listening to: I Wanna Know What Love Is by Mariah Carey

A week or so ago I was talking to a friend of Angie's. Blablabla, then I wanted to ask him which high school he was from. Before I could pop the question, Angie's boyfriend, Vincent, told me that this guy was his high school junior. From what I know, Vincent was from SMK USJ 12. So this guy should be from USJ 12 too! He was the same age as me so I asked him if he knew a friend of mine from USJ 12. The look on his face immediately changed. Ha ha ha! What a small world.

Last weekend, I was having a few drinks with Hy, Ah Boy and Angie. Somehow or other I was talking about this guy I used to like. Angie wasn't really paying attention. Until later when she heard me mention his name, she asked me what his English name is. After I told her, she downed her Tiger beer without hesitation with a look of anger on displayed all over her face. She told me why she hated him later on. What a small world.

Two nights ago, I was shisha-ing with Angie and Vincent. I asked Vincent if he knew Jin Young. Previously, I went through some photos in Angie's phone. And I saw a picture of Jin Young. I was like, You know Jin Young?! Angie said he was Vincent's best friend. And then I remembered, Jin Young was from USJ 12 before coming over to SMKBK. What a small world.

Don't ask me why all 3 paragraphs involve Angie and her boyfriend.

Stupid, Much?

Listening to: Airplanes (Part 2) by B.o.B. ft. Hayley Williams & Eminem

I was chatting with Fcy almost an hour ago on MSN. She told me that she collected her exam results already. Her results weren't satisfactory, much. I am fearful of mine now. All I can do now is pray and hope that I did not fail my Macroeconomics paper. I am, after all, quite bad at it. No matter how many people tell me how amazingly easy it is, I never really quite understood it. Maybe it was because I was never interested in it. Or maybe it was because I saw mushrooms floating around the class during Ms. Chaw's lectures.

Or maybe it is because I am just plain stupid.

Tommy Cheong Wan Fei, I miss talking to you. Let's meet up soon when you're back in KK - and bring Stephy (:

Pianoforte.

Listening to: Fifteen by Taylor Swift

I have not touched my piano in months. Two months? Or maybe even more. I'm not so sure. My dad wanted to sell off my piano because it takes up a lot of space and no one touches it. Very true. But no matter what, I would not agree to the selling of my piano. It is there for me whenever I am feeling down. Somehow when I feel unhappy (which is quite rare), I seek comfort in my piano. Even though I am not very good at it and can only memorize ONE song by heart, it gives me the refuge I need.

I was feeling quite depressed during lunch time, and no one is to be blamed except myself. I was not thinking straight. I was asking myself so many Whys and Hows, all those questions clogged up my brain. I wasn't in the mood to do anything. My undying hunger was already dying. To those of you who don't know, I need to eat at least every 3 hours. I did not have any breakfast before work. My usual self would be starving after work. But today, I barely felt those hunger pangs.

And then I had my lunch at almost 3 with Zk at McDs. McDs for lunch two days in a row is not what I fancy but I could not think of anything else to eat at that time. Thanks for accompanying me for lunch, Nephew.

I came home tired and not very satisfied with my large Big Mac set. I rotted around the house contemplating between sleeping or going online. I went online. Obviously. Couldn't hold in my emotions and let them go on MSN. Wanna thank Beng, Yiwei and Fuu for asking whether I was okay. Wanna thank Fuu for just talking to me even though you didn't help out much lol. But yeah, thanks anyway.

I missed playing my piano. I was still feeling depressed and all the Whys and Hows started swirling around my head again. I saw my piano. I saw my brother sleeping. I looked at the thin layer of dust settled comfortably on top of my piano lid. I lifted it up, sat on my piano bench, and my fingers automatically played the keys of the only song I can memorize by heart.

A tear streamed down my cheek.

And now I am feeling so much better compared to this afternoon. I can think more clearly. All those Whys and Hows are finally answered. Well, most of them are.

Loss Time Life.

Listening to: Do You Know (The Ping Pong Song) by Enrique Iglesias

What would you do if you knew that your time in life is ticking away by the minute? A mysterious "referee" appears in front of individuals in their dying moments while living their usual lives, and announces the exact amount of time they have left to live. Each individual must make a quick decision on how to best spend the time remaining before his or her time expires. --groink


This drama has got me thinking about what I would do if I had a certain amount of time left to live. Until now I can't really think about what I would want to do if, say, I had another 3 hours left to live my life. Would I want to spend it all on my friends? My family? My boyfriend? One hour for each then, ha ha. If I really was given a few hours left to live, I would probably be crying my eyes out telling everyone how much I love them.

I would withdraw all my money out from my bank account and spend it all on my loved ones. A PS3 for my dad. A PC for my mum. A graphic card for my brother. A Sony Ericsson hand phone for my sister. A carton of cigs for my boyfriend (ha ha, you wish lah) - buy Fred Perry shirts for you okay? I don't know what Yi Zhong wants so I'll give her an ang pau ha ha. And then I'll belanja every one else drinks.






All in 3 hours.

*Credits to http://wiki.d-addicts.com/ for the paragraph in Italic.

I Wanna Watch Toy Story 3!

Listening to: 하루 하루 (Haru Haru) by Big Bang

And I wanna watch it bad! Despite all the rubbish coming from some friends who say that cartoons are for kids, I beg to differ. I grew up watching Toy Story 1 and Toy Story 2. Being 19 isn't going to stop me from watching the long-awaited Toy Story 3! I was so excited about it, I actually thought it was going to be showing in cinemas almost 2 months ago. That was because I saw the poster for Toy Story 1 & 2 Marathon in 3D - not Toy Story 3 ):

The new toy that really caught my attention when I watched the trailer a few months back was, of course, none other than Ken!

Look at him! Doesn't he just look adorable? That sexy charming smile and body clad in blue (not really my favorite color but it works for me anyway). Oh, and let's not forget that nice ascot Barbie pointed out in the trailer.

Oh, and I still laugh every time I watch the trailer and Ken wails out that he isn't a girl's toy!