Trial Results .

Mood : Sick

I barely have the time to post anything up here anymore thanks to SPM . Tomorrow I shall though , 'cause I have a nice story to tell :)

English : 83 (A1)
Pendidikan Moral : 72 (A2)
Bahasa Malaysia : 70 (A2)
EST : 70 (A2)
Mathematics : 58 (C5)
Prinsip Akaun : 53 (C6)
Sejarah : 42 (8E)
Chemistry : 37 (9G)
Additional Maths : 31 (9G)

Pathetic , I know . But I'm very sure I'll do better for SPM :)

Smile whenever possible . Even if your results are as bad as mine :)

PS : Fayadh sayang , I'm sorry I can't post up our story tonight . I'm so sick and I've been waiting all night to use the PC for half an hour . I'll post it up tomorrow kay ? That's if mum doesn't make noise about it .

I Might Be Going Soon .

Mood : Blank

Signs and symptoms of phenacetin toxicity may initially be absent or vague. Untreated, overdose can lead to liver failure and death within days; paracetamol hepatotoxicity is, by far, the most common cause of acute liver failure in both the United States and the United Kingdom.

In recommended doses, paracetamol does not irritate the lining of the stomach, affect blood coagulation as much as NSAIDs, or affect function of the kidneys. However, some studies have shown that high dose-usage (greater than 2,000 mg per day) does increase the risk of upper gastrointestinal complications such as stomach bleeding.

Individuals that have overdosed on paracetamol, in general, have no specific symptoms for the first 24 hours. Although nausea, vomiting, and diaphoresis may occur initially, these symptoms, in general, resolve after several hours.

Haha , I don't think I'm gonna die but I realised that I consumed 11 tablets of Panadol within 2 hours without realising how much the dose was per tablet . I checked it this afternoon and it stated that each tablet contains 200mg . OMG , stomach bleeding !

But don't worry lah . Paling teruk also I get admitted to hospital only mah .

Evidence of liver toxicity may develop in one to four days, although, in severe cases, it may be evident in 12 hours. Right-upper-quadrant tenderness may be present.

No wonder I felt nauseous in school today and now I'm suffering from abdominal pain :(

Mamma Mia !

Mood : Drunk

This movie is just heavenly , especially if you're an ABBA fan . I've watched it three times and for a musical , it beats High School Musical flat . Sorry HSM fans , I'm not really a fan :)

I've been listening to ABBA ever since I was young , credits to my parents who are absolutely in love with ABBA . There's no denying however , that ABBA's songs are extremely catchy and the lyrics are simple . The movie included hits like Lay All Your Love On Me , Chiquitita , S.O.S , Take a Chance On Me and of course , my all time favourite , Mamma Mia . The storyline is not boring , with an all star cast featuring The Devil Wears Prada's Meryl Streep , James Bond's Pierce Brosnan and Bridget Jones' Diary's Colin Firth .

Yes , the Pierce Brosnan aka 007 James Bond . Try to imagine him singing . I burst out laughing when he started singing S.O.S in the movie . But after listening to his voice a few times it didn't seem so funny anymore . Awww :(

The scenes in the movie were quirky and funny . I never did feel bored even after watching it several times . Of course , the songs played their part by keeping the audience alive throughout the whole movie , with many singing along to ABBA's hits .

Again , to those ABBA fans , this movie is a must !

My Abhorrence Towards Additional Mathematics and Fake Promises .

Mood : Dead

The only reason I went to school today and yesterday is to get back my Pendidikan Moral marks from Puan Faizah . Add. Maths Paper 2 results was supposed to be given out today but the whole school had to sit and watch the Form 3's Restu Ilmu ceremony and it took up around the first two periods , which is my class' Add. Maths period . I'm not bothered about Add. Maths . In fact , I don't even want to look at it . I just feel that I would get around 60 marks for Pendidikan Moral which would make my day . Yesterday Puan Faizah claimed that she has finished marking my class' paper but has not even looked at Science 2's . We persuaded her to return our papers but she disagreed and promised that she would return our papers today . She didn't even enter the class lahh . I should have just continued sleeping at home .

And the rest was history . Nothing special happened today only that not many from my class turned up and 5 Science 4 was suffering from pre-SPM symptoms .

During Add. Maths tuition , I actually managed to do a few questions without asking Mr Lee too many times . Yay ! I considered sacrificing my time for this whole month for extra classes with Mr Lee on the days when he is free to improve on my Add. Maths . He'll be my free personal Additional Maths tutor for this whole month of October till SPM . He can tutor me on the following days :

Tuesday and Thursday : 6 PM till 8 PM
Friday : 4.30 PM till 6 PM

Note that I have my paid for classes on Fridays from 2.30 PM till 4.30 and I'll be continuing my extra class from 4.30 PM till 6 PM . I'm aiming for a credit at most and I am willing to sacrifice my time and precious afternoon naps for intensive Additional fucking Mathematics classes . I am being mentally challenged and I am going to overcome it . Good luck , me !

I remember when 5 Science 4 was sitting for our Add. Maths paper , everyone except for Ji Kin and Rachel felt that (picture's) way when attempting to answer the gedebabi questions .

PS : I don't know where I got the word gedebabi from . It just popped up in my mind . It has nothing to with the Malay translation of pork/pig , which is babi . As far as I know .

PPS : I was talking with mc and Fayadh at SMC this evening and I saw Nicholas Wong . I then recalled Adzmy mentioning that Nicholas has a tattoo around his ankle and I wanted to see if it was true . So I used mc to ask him . LOL . Sorry mc . I finally saw the tat and it was nice . I want a tattoo of my surname on my neck soon . Mum allows me to get a tat but it has to be after I complete my education . That's too late lah . I'm prolly gonna get it done by the end of this year or next year , even though I'll be taking Form 6 . After Form 6 , I'm gonna pierce my lip and that is definite . Oh yeah , the next time I go out to Sunway Pyramid , I'm gonna pierce my right ear to make my piercings balance out , since I've got five on my left and four on my right :)

I'm gonna have this symbol embedded on my neck/back forever :)

Emotional Much ?

Mood : Emo

So yesterday my class got back our English Paper 1 . My marks were .. satisfactory I suppose , and I got a nice comment from Puan Chan . I barely had time to start reading my Section B essay because Ijmal asked for it , so I gave it to him . In return , I went around class asking for essays which weren't being read (everybody was reading everybody's essay) , and I read a fair few which impressed me .

About my essay , when I was writing it , I decided that no eyes be laid upon it besides me and Puan Chan due to personal reasons . But it totally slipped from my mind when Ijmal asked to read it .

Ijmal : Kak nise , can I read your essay ?
Denise : Nah (passes essay paper to him)
Ijmal : Thanks .

One minute later .

Ijmal : Why does this story seem so .. familiar ?
Denise : Er , 'cause it is ?
Ijmal : (says to Amirul because he was reading as well) Told you !
Denise : Shhhhh ! Keep it to yourselves .

When Ijmal and Amirul were done reading it , they passed it back to me and Ijmal (ehem) shed a tear or two apparently . The next thing I knew , Ann wanted to read it , and so did Shyuan , Yi Zhong , Elyna and some others which I cannot recall thanks to it being passed around . Practically everyone who read it knew who I was referring to in the essay . Some people didn't even give me a response .

Yi Zhong : I know how you feel .
Denise : You do ?
Yi Zhong : Yeah lah , I know who you're talking about in the essay ma .
Denise : Kinda obvious , huh ?
Yi Zhong : Yeah .

Other parts of the conversation with Yi Zhong are meant to be kept private .

Elyna : I really like your story . And er .. I think it's about ... (mouths a name)
Denise : Yeah , it's about that person .

I cut out some parts of the conversation to avoid confrontation from some parties .

The next thing I knew , the person I wrote about asked for my essay . I hesitated , but let her read it anyway . What harm would it do right ? While I was reading Ijmal's essay , she came up to me and said it was a nice story . I don't know if I was being paranoid but I thought I saw sadness in her eyes - they were kind of red . But I think I was just exaggerating . Maybe she was just sleepy or tired or something . I denied the fact that it was nice and stated that another friend's one was nicer - just to be humble . She , however , told me that she thought it was utterly boring . I agreed (lol) .

At that moment , I felt like breaking down . But I held back those tears teasing my eyes , wanting to gush out . It felt kind of awkward sitting opposite my best friend , or should I say , ex-best friend after not really talking for a long time . I was really tensed up and dared not look up much .

When I went home , I read my essay . I forgot to mention that after writing the essay , I had no time to go through it . I just had to start on my Section A essay because I was running out of time . I started to cry after reading the second paragraph .

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One year and three months ago , I lost my best friend . At that moment , when we totally broke off all means of contacting each other , I felt vastly disappointed with her . And she , me . Now , when I think about what happened last year , I feel so brokenhearted at the fact that our friendship broke all because of a fucked up misunderstanding which did not even involve me or her .

I miss her . I miss the times when we hung out and laughed like maniacs in class for three years . The times when we debate on which football player is hotter and which Japanese Rock artiste is to die for . She was part of my life and losing her made me realise that a part of my heart was taken away . We went through a lot . Whatwith her parents not liking me , saying that I'm no good at my studies and being a bad influence to her . Yet , she disagreed with them and stayed true to me as a best friend . It is pathetic that , although we sit in the same class , I can't even strike up a nice conversation with her . All we do is smile at each other or utter a simple 'Hi' and 'Bye' .

Every night for two months , I have been thinking about how our relationship fell to pieces and the effects it had on me . I am hesitant to talk to her because I am afraid that she would act coldly towards me after what happened last year . It is so heart-wrenching to even think about what her response would be to me if I told her that I miss having her as a friend .

Let's face it , she was the best friend I've ever had , and to be honest , nobody can replace her .

Yes , as a matter of fact , I think I should .

I Am Feeling EVIL !

Mood : Evil

I have nothing to say . But I'm feeling evil ! Muahahaha !

Books , books and more books .

Mood : Crappy

So I went to Mid Valley today for one specific reason - Twilight . The more I read Qisthina's blog (it's practically all about Twilight) , the more I crave for the book . Once my dad parked the car I headed off to MPH and when I caught sight of the book I clung onto it so tightly , if it were a baby or puppy , it would have died of suffocation . I bought it and skipped happily around MPH and nobody seemed to mind because , duhhh , it's Raya . I love festive seasons .

However , I'm not gonna read it yet because I'm currently reading Robinson Crusoe by Daniel Defoe . To those of you who have not heard of Robinson Crusoe , it's a classic , that's for sure . But when I first started reading it , it bore me to tears . First of all , I couldn't stand the tiny words . Biasalah , classics . The font is so tiny I have to squint to read it . After reading a few pages , my eyes would start to burn in pain . Secondly , at the beginning when he (Robinson Crusoe)'s narrating about his life , I felt like slamming the book shut and never opening it ever ever again . But I was strong and put up with all the boring parts and I finally go to the more exciting chapters , when he got stranded on an island with his whole crew dead except for him of course . Now I'm already halfway through the novel and I can't seem to put it down . But , one reason why I get annoyed everytime I lay eyes on the tiny fonts on the pages , is (please don't get offended my friends who are Christians) that he talks about how God has had mercy on him , etc. It's not that I'm anti-Christian . I respect others' religion but the too frequent mention of God and His providing Providence is too much for me . But , I just read on . Again , to my fellow Christian friends , please please please do not get offended . If you are , tell it to my face , don't bitch about me behind my back yeah .

After Robinson Crusoe , I have to read another novel entitled The Not-So-Perfect Man by Valerie Frankel . It's a birthday present from my siblings (awww..) and I appreciate that . They're so sweet . It so happened that when I received this present , I was already starting on Robinson Crusoe . I didn't want to stop reading Robinson Crusoe despite how boring it was during the beginning so I told my sis , this one just has to wait . Sorry :)

And then I shall read Twilight . Muahahaha ! After much calculation , by the time it's time for me to open Twilight , it shall be after SPM because during SPM week , I shall not , by any means , touch any book . This is due to the fact that me , like most people who love to read , could not put down a book once we pick it up .

I am prepared for some post-Twilight reading . My sister bought this set of books for her birthday , the Septimus Heap series . My brother has finished reading the first book , Magyk , and is not allowed to read the following books : Flyte , Physik and Queste . Why ? Because Hannah won't allow him to open the wrapped books until she's done reading Magyk . Which I know will take a long time for her to finish because for the past month , I have not seen her looking at the book , Magyk . So once I'm done with Twilight , I shall read Magyk . While saving up/earning some money to buy New Moon .

PS : The Septimus Heap series will also appear in Cinemas soon . Soon as in around three years time or more .

After Mid Valley , we went to Suria KLCC and of course , I just had to stop by Kinokuniya . My brother headed for his favourite section , Comics aka Graphic Novels . Once we reached the Manga slash Comic section , this particular graphic novel caught my attention . I walked towards it and it took some time for my brain to process what I was looking at 'cause when I realized what it was , I screamed in excitement and yelled for my brother to come over -yes , in Kinokuniya . He came over and when he saw the graphic novel I was holding in my hand , his jaw dropped . It was Hatter M by Frank Beddor . I wanted it then and there , but it didn't take me too long to realize that it cost RM70 . Thus , I sadly put it back where it belonged :(

Hatter Madigan is among one of the many characters in The Looking Glass Wars . When I started reading this book , I simply could not put it down . What it is , is a totally alternate universe of the original Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass by Lewis Carroll . If you have read the story , or watched the cartoon , Alice Liddell is a little girl from our world who happened to stumble across another world - a world full of nonsense . However , in Frank Beddor's The Looking Glass Wars trilogy , he portrays Alyss as the princess in the Queendom of Wonderland . Her family was attacked by her aunt who was banished from Wonderland , Queen Redd , and she fell through the Pool of Tears into our world . Hatter Madigan (the Mad Hatter) is Queen Genevieve (Alyss)'s personal bodyguard and is ordered by the queen to protect Alyss once they escape from the Queendom . They had no choice but to escape through the Pool of Tears when they were cornered by The Cat (the Cheshire cat in Alice in Wonderland) , Redd's number one assasin with nine lives . Hence , the Queendom is turned upside down by Redd . Bibwit Harte (if unscrambled , becomes the White Rabbit who's always late in Alice in Wonderland) , the Queendom's scholar has no choice but to obey Redd's every command to stay alive . What happens to Alyss then , in our world ? You'll have to read to find out then .

PS : When I was in Kinokuniya , I searched high and low for the second instalment of The Looking Glass Wars trilogy , Seeing Redd and I found it - the very last one . But I had already spent enough on food , whatnots and Twilight . So I couldn't buy it . Beddor's third and last instalment entitled The Law of Wonderland is set to be released in Fall of 2009 . I can't wait ! Oh , and again , the script to The Looking Glass Wars movie is being written now . Thus , I lagi can't wait !