These Bands for Life <3

Mood : Busy
Paramore !



My Chemical Romance !


Dir en grey !


PS : Yes , Dir en grey happens to be my header pic :)

I HATE !

Mood : Bummed

I hate hate hate hate hate my hair right now . I just wanna get it cut . I miss my old hair so much . I don't like my hair at all now . When can I get my hair cut ? When can I get the perfect haircut ? I wanna cut it short . I don't like long hair , it's so annoying . I miss my emo fringe . I don't like my current lala mui fringe . It looks so horrible on me . I hate it . Hate it . I miss it so badly I just wanna break down and cry .

I miss youuu old hairstyle . I really do . xoxo

Tagged by Shyuan .

Mood : Blah

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What is it that bothers you the most?
Mosquitoes .

2.What is your most favourite thing to do?
Stone in front of the PC even though I don't have anything else to do on it .

3.What kind of news do you read?
Anything that attracts my attention .

4.What is your ultimate wish?
To be happy forever .

5.Is there someone in your heart right now?
Yeah .

6.Do you believe you can survive without money?
No .

7. Are you afraid of pain ?
No

8.What do you feel like doing right now?
Hugging my baby .

9.If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
It depends .

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
She's smart , nice and fun .

11.What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
That he wouldn't be so overprotective .

12.What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
Someone who has bitched about me and suddenly starts being friends with me .

13.If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
My mum's cooking . Forever .

14.If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Happy duh .

15.If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
To not be rude to people when I've lost it .

16.How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
A successful person (I'm not sure of my career yet) and happily married with a kid .

17.What is the one thing you love about yourself?
My patience .

18.If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what would it be?
Money , just in case .

19.What is the type of song you like to listen to (Music Genre) ?
Screamo .

20. I'm tagging
irfan
nisha
wen cheang
myira
nancy
zen yoong
sean
jowen

See Wei !

Mood : Angsty

I found a few of See Wei's pictures on the Junior Idol website and some from Zen Yoong's blog . I don't know how I managed to click here and there till I found the pictures (the website was in Chinese and I can't read Chinese) .

To those of you who don't know who See Wei is , she's my fellow classmate and is very pretty . She's just so adorable . About a month ago I found out that she took part in the TVB Junior Idol contest . Belly-dancing , apparently , is her thang . I was like , OMG I didn't know See Wei could belly-dance ! I don't wanna say no more . I'll just post up some of the pictures I , ehem , stole .

Spot See Wei ! She's the one up front with the short hair .

She's wearing her costume I guess . I can't imagine her belly-dancing O.O

And lastly , this high quality one . I love this one 'cause she gets to take a friggin' awesome picture with a Hong Kong actor ! OMFGWTF . I don't know his real name but I watch him on TVB dramas all the time .

Three Ulsers and a Glass of Salt Water .

Mood : Aggravated

It hurt . So bad . So so bad . The salt water stung my ulser to the very corrrrrre . I was so desperate on getting it healed . Desperate times call for desperate measure people ! Ughh .

Hari Raya is coming up and I'm staying home . That's dull . Well I guess I'll just head on down to the lake . To feed the fishes . Alone . Since nobody's gonna pui me .

I just checked my imeem account and I realised that one of my songs , Tears by X-Japan was played 200 k times and the 100 + comments all were about the same . Eg : Thank you for putting this up ! , I love this song ! , I love YOU for putting up this song ! For hide (sobs) . Like ftw . I appreciate those comments people . I miss hide too :(

I miss hide (pronounced hee-day) . If he was still alive I know X-Japan would never have broken apart . If he was still alive he would be the same age as my dad . I've been playing Tears on the piano during his death anniversary for three years since I knew about his death . This year is his 10th year anniversary . I cry every time I watch his funeral procession . I still can't complete playing Forever Love 'cause it's too difficult . But I'll manage . Rest In Peace hide . 1964 - 1998 .

Joshua Q and I are gonna share money to get a pressie for Sab on her birthday . Oh , and Ann too . Only that I haven't informed her yet . Plus , Josh and I are V.I.Ps so we get to wear red . Wee !

I miss Fayadh so bad . He didn't sms me since noon 'cause he left his phone at home . It's already 9.43 pm and he still hasn't texted me yet . I wanna hug him . At least he called me using his dad's phone . But that was barely for a minute . I miss his sepet eyes .

Looky ! The mata sepet !

Charice Pempengco , Philippines' Teenage Prodigy.

Mood : Indescribable


I was watching Oprah on Hallmark this afternoon and it so happened that she was doing a show on child talents . These children , one word - amazing . There was this seven year old who could play Mozart's Amadeus , a nine year old who could play the electric guitar better than I do on Guitar Hero , a toddler barely even three years old who could point out every country on the World Map out to you and many others . But what caught my attention the most was Charice Pempengko . She's fifteen , from the Phillippines , and loves to sing . Apparently she idolizes vocal sensations like Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey . Forget about idolizing them , she freaking sings like them . I mean , Whitney . When I watched her sing Whitney Houston's I Need You , I could feel the goosebumps on my arms popping out . mc said maybe it's the aura . Maybe it is .

Watch watch watch watch the video . It's not the one from Oprah's show 'cause I felt that this one , is more awesome .


Whitney Houston's One Moment In Time

Just a Short Post

Mood : Impervious

My Mozilla crashed , so I'm using Internet Explorer . Stupid . I hate hate hate using Internet Explorer .

I have three ulsers in my mouth now . Apparently , the more water I drink the more ulsers pop out . The pain and torture is practically driving me up the stinking wall . I could barely eat , let alone talk .

I saw Beryl's Raisin Chocolate in MaxValu today . I wanted it . But Mum wanted the Almond ones . Darn .

I wanna blog about something but I'm just so damn lazy . Thus , time to play Guitar Hero : Aerosmith . Or maybe not . Britain's Next Top Model would do just fine .



Lauren McAvoy from BNTM Cycle 3 . Wee <3

Tagged by Nisha

1. Is anything wrong?
- yes

2. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
- yes

3. Do you want to go to college?
- er , i guess ?

4. How many kids do you want to have?
- i have nooo idea , not more than 3 i guess . judging by the way me and my siblings everyday , i think it's safer to have less than three

5. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
- i think so

6. What did you do for your last birthday?
- i went to One Utama with my family and ate at Chilli's

7. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- playing Guitar Hero : Aerosmith .

8. Name something you cannot wait for?
- for SPM to be over and done with

10. What is one thing you would change in your life?
- not telling

12. Last thing you ate/drank?
- water

13. Whats your favorite month?
- August , 'cause it has the most birthdays !

14. What is your least favorite month?
- June

15. Do you like peanut butter?
- with choc

16. Who's making you feel the way you are right now?
- no one really

17. Most visited web pages?
- friendster , myspace , facebook , blogger , youtube and neopets (yes ,wtf)

18. Last person to make you mad?
- i can't remember

19. Pepsi or coke?
- coke lah duh

20. Have you hugged anyone in the past week?
- hmm .. no one

21. Fun thing to look forward to this week?
- holidays

22. What do you think about your siblings?
- i hate them sometimes but in the end we get along , so whatever

24. Whats your favorite number(s)?
- 9 (TORRES !!)

25. What do you do after school/college?
- sleep

26. Do you know how to swim?
- yeahh , just not the professional type like backstroke and freestyle . all those lah .

27. Where were you born?
- petaling jaya

28. Do you have a crush?
- no


FRIEND CONFESSIONS
1. Are you jealous of one or more of your friends?
- no . why should i be .

2. Have you known any of your friends your whole life?
-not really my whole like , but like , 10 years ?

3. Are any of your friends taller than you?
-many . uncountable so to say .

4. Have you ever been ditched by a friend?
- seriously , i don't know . maybe i have , but i jsut didn't realise . being the dumb one . lol

5. Do you have your friend's phone number's memorized?
- a fair few

6. Have you lost or forgotten a friend's phone number?
- depends on who it is

7. Have you been to most of your friends houses?
- i have many friends , but only been to those who are closer to me

8. Do you love most of your friends?
- yeahh


HABIT CONFESSIONS
1. Do you play with things when nervous?
- no

2. Do you have an odd obsession with knives?
- yes

3. Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
- doesn't matter , unless the air con's switched on

4. Is there at least one sound you can't stand?
- duh

5. What is your worst habit?
- don't know


LOVE CONFESSIONS
1. Do you currently like/love someone?
- yeah

2. Do you want to kill one of your exes?
- yeah

4. Has one of your crushes ever called you self centered before?
- no , he didn't even say anything to me . lol


PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS
1. Do you think abortions are horrible?
- yeah

2. Are you against or think gay marriage is bad?
- no

3. Is pink an ugly color?
- nope

4. Needles aren't so horrible?
- they aren't so horrible . i love 'em

5. You have plenty of secrets?
- not plenty , but some .


HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS
1. Have you ever fallen UP the stairs?
- yes . i tripped .

2. Have you ever had a nail fall off?
- no , it broke though

3.Have you ever slapped someone across the face?
- NOO . i can never bring myself to do that

I tag :
marcus
chin wynn
jowen
shaunie
myira

How Was Your Day Denise ?

Mood : Discontent

I doubt any of you would want to read this post . Why ? Because it's gonna (yes , gonna ) be boring . But , why ?? Well , it's because this post is gonna be about me . So , people who don't like - ehem - me , would not like to read this . Okay , so maybe if you do like me , I still doubt you might want to read this post . I'm treating this post as a .. uh .. diary slash journal post . Thus , if there are many who are kay poh or just have nothing better to do , read on . You have been warned . You might get bored .

I don't know why I'm doing this . It's 11.27 PM , I'm supposed to be studying for Maths tomorrow and my eyes can barely open . Sooo , what the heck am I doing blogging late at night in an exhausted state when I should be sleeping or at least , studying . I don't know why . Maybe it's because my dad offered to let me use the PC . After my major breakdown when I was sitting for my EST paper , I had no confidence to sit for any of my other papers . So , I'm not really taking trials seriously . Screw it . I am so sleepy right now I could just fall asleep and drool all over the keyboard , but somehow that's not happening . I would really really like to go upstairs and lie down on my comfy bed , rest my head on my lovely goose-feathered pillow and fall into a deep slumber . But then again , I'm forcing myself to stay awake and type nonsense . I seriously need to pee . That's why there's a picture of a flowery toilet seat at the beginning of my post .

How was your day Denise ? Overall , I think it was so-so , so to say . I could actually complete my Chemistry Paper 3 stress-free . This is the first time I completed writing down the whole experiment . Though i doubt that I would get full marks but hey , I would consider myself lucky being able to answer the questions smoothly . Oh , one thing that caught my attention today . Fayadh actually studied . It was during recess when I saw him holding his Ekonomi Asas text book and I was like , "What are you doing ?" . And he was like , "Studying lah ." D-oh . Yes , he was studying then . But to be honest , the book looked effin' brand new . Yeah , I know you're supposed to keep the school text books clean and all that but Fayadh's book was like all brand new . I bet he never touches it at home . *snicker* When Puan Siva entered our class , she returned to us our Accounts papers . Ten people failed , Elyna got highest (93%) and I got 53% which , to me , was average . I was not happy no was I sad . Just , neutral . However , I am very happy for Ann , Amirul and some others who passed , having continously failing Accounts for a year plus . This is very good improvement , so keep it up !

Let's skip what happened in the afternoon because it was awfully boring . Even boring-er (I'm sorry , I know that's not a word available in the dictionary) than what I'm talking about now . So yeah , I studied at night for a few hours . I have no idea why I'm sticking my nose into my Maths workbook when I should be working on Add . Maths . I'm so pathetic . The idea of me passing Add . Maths is absolutely ludicrous , I'll say !

I logged into my Facebook account a few minutes ago and what I saw shocked me . I had 74 friend requests and 80 other requests . Like ftw ?! I'm too lazy to approve them all so I'll get to it tomorrow or summat . Just now now , 'cause I wanna sleep . And also 'cause my dad wants to smoke it peace without me nagging about the risks of smoking and us secondhand smokers . Much to my dismay (I know you're cheering that my long and boring post has finally come to and end) , I shall end here . Good night dear friends . I shall dream of you .

PS : I bit the inside of my cheek today and it hurts so bad . Hence , I have two ulsers in my mouth . I put salt on them and it stung real bad . It hurt , I held back my tears .

PPS : My ulser due to heatiness (not the one I bit) bled for the first time in my life . Thanks , salt .

Fish Out Of Water's Email To Me A Year Ago .

Click on the picture to view enlarged version . I just read this mail today ! Fish out of water happens to be a good friend of mine which flew to the States last year and bought a keychain which looks like a slipper from Chicago . Therefore , I shall buy a souvenir (a keychain perhaps) for him if I go for vacation anywhere out of Malaysia .

PS : mc , it ain't necessary to refresh my blog page every 10 seconds :)

You Broke My Heart .

Mood : Sad

Like the title states , you have broken my heart and you have misused my trust towards you .

I'm so very disappointed in you .

Maybe I'll get famous .

I'm Not Happy .

Mood : Pissed Off

I'm not as happy as I was before . I'm considering starting my habit I have promised to throw away a year ago .

I miss the people I haven't talked to for a long time . I'm sorry , I'm just so caught up in my studies and emotions .

I'm so afraid of losing my loved ones unexpectedly . I'm thinking too much .

I'm so disappointed with some people . I feel like doing things I've thought about doing which will hurt myself and those people as well .

I really want my boyfriend to write a letter to me . A love letter . I know this seems childish , but I have never received a love letter from any guy before , let alone my own boyfriend .

Conclusion , I'm unhappy and emotionally disturbed . Someone put me out of my misery , please ?

Maybe you won't mean to , but you'll see me on the news .

Rest In Peace

Mood : Peeved

Chronic diseases are very much harmful , everyone knows that . Yet , how many of you really feel the pain of losing a special someone . Be as it may , I may not be very close to Wong Su Lian but the thought of losing someone whom I knew , it's devastating . I'm glad that I didn't stop by her house today to pay my last respects because I am sure I would cry , although I don't know her that well .

When I heard that she had a tumor in her brain two months ago , I felt deeply saddened by it - because I knew that she already had no chance of surviving . I'm not trying to be discouraging . But every body knows .. that having a tumor in your brain , it's just impossible to remove . What about living then ? It's just so upsetting the more I think about it . I can't believe that someone so young , so cheerful and wild and crazy could get a fucking tumor in her brain .

I've got a friend who told me that his fifteen year old cousin got diagnosed with lymphatic cancer . And again , I was devastated . Ahhh , I just feel so upset over everything .



Wong Su Lian , Rest in Peace . You are deeply missed by loved ones .

My Apologies .

Mood : Nostalgic

To the ten people who tried to take my True Friend Test , sorry for the inconvenience caused ! There were some errors when I tried to create it and I had no time to revert everything . So , here's the new one ! Do take the test if you're free :)

Mood / True Friend Test .

I have decided to put my mood at the beginning of every post from now on - actually not now on , after this post . Since Qisthina puts the song she's currently listening to , I might as well put my current mood during my typing out the post . I doubt any of you would even bother look at it though , but my mood affects the way I post :)

I have noticed many of these "True Friend Test"'s on bloggers' profiles lately . I created two of these tests early last year , both scored the highest by Marcus (I can't believe I barely even got 50% on his quiz) . So , since I've update myself after a year , let's see if some of you could answer the ten questions . Some questions are difficult and some are simple , it depends on the individual . And yes , I doubt many people would answer it what with almost everybody sitting for trials the whole September month .

Good luck !

Guitar Hero World Tour !

I have come to the point where I can't hold it in much longer . Guitar Hero World Tour is being released either in October or November . Whichever the month , I am still going to buy it . I don't care whether it's too near to SPM or during SPM , I am STILL going to buy it . Although the graphics may not be as good as the game played on the PS3 , but hey , I have been playing GH for 3 effin' years ever since it was first released so my parents should understand my urge to own it .

This time , GHWT allows players to play even the drums and sing with the microphone . I already own the guitar so I'm gonna save up for a set of GH drums . However , I am kinda disappointed that Activision is trying to be a copy of Rock Band . Yes , I have played Rock Band - once . It was nice . But I still prefer GH to Rock Band . I mean , why is Guitar Hero called Guitar Hero ?! Because you're supposed to be the Guitar Hero , not a Drum Hero or Frontman Hero , etc.

GHWT allows players to record their own studio album (which I am not really looking forward to) . What I'm really looking forward to is the setlist . One of the only reasons I liked playing Rock Band was because the setlist was effin' huge . The songs were never ending . Plus , they had AX7 (Avenged Sevenfold)'s songs . GHWT's setlist features songs like

1. Michael Jackson's Beat It
2. System of a Down's B.Y.O.B
3. The Eagles' Hotel California
4. Linkin Park's In the End and What I've Done
5. Bon Jovi's Livin' on a Prayer
6. Jimi Hendrix's Purple Haze (Live)
7. Bullet for My Valentine's Scream Aim Fire
8. Coldplay's Shiver
9. Oasis' Some Might Say
10. No Doubt's Spiderwebs
11. The Smashing Pumpkins' Today
12. Metallica's Trapped Under Ice

AND (my personal favourites)

1. Lostprophets' Rooftops
2. Tokio Hotel's Monsoon
3. Flo Rida's Low (remixed by Travis Barker)
4. Paramore's Misery Business - ultimate LOVE !

Players can also download certain songs from GHTunes (yes , like iTunes) .

OMG I can't wait !

PS : Anybody wanna challenge me in GH ? It's been a while since I've played with a jammer of
my ranking :p

PPS : I can't imagine playing Low on GH .

PPPS : Rock Band 2 is being released around the same time as GHWT on the PS2 and I'm gonna
get it , though it will never take GH's place in my heart .

Gee , You Are You !

You Are the Guru

You are a naturally good counselor. You are inspiring, encouraging, and compassionate. You are eager to help everyone who crosses your path, even those who don't want to be helped. You are a natural healer. People feel at peace when they are with you. You are so good for people, in fact, that they go through withdrawal once you're gone. You quietly do your own thing, without openly resisting. You secretly try to fix every problem. Your biggest regret is not being able to help as many people as you'd like.

What Role Do You Play?

I'd like to point out that I only agree with the last paragraph .

Random

I woke up at 6.50 am . Didn't have time to pin up my hair . I dumped random schoolbooks into my bag at 7.15 and ended up not using any of them except for Accounts .

Due to the Tasawwur Islam paper , all the Form 5 Science classes joined up together in Science 3 but followed my class' (Science 4) timetable . However , the only subject which was taught was Accounts , and that's only half the class . Surprising that four classes with an average of forty students could fit into just one class . That's because less than ten people from Science 1 turned up , one person from Science 2 turned up , two people from Science 3 turned up and around ten people turned up from my class . Attendance stated does not include students taking Tasawwur .

Most of the students from Science 1 were studying . They talked too though . The Science 2 student , Shafik , was either sitting at his place singing while studying or randomly disturbing people . Both Science 3 students were sleeping every time I laid eyes on them . My class ? We played Bingo - on the calculator .

Puan Siva canceled our kelas tambahan due to her inconvenience . Hooray !

It effin' rained again ! I love rain and I love sleeping without the air-con when it rains . It's ... fun :)

Yi Zhong turned up at my house soaking wet . Ha ha , padan muka . Who call you not to bring out umbrella ? I offered you know .

I was supposed to study for at least 5 hours but ended up studying one hour of Add. Maths , being able to do none of the questions . Actually , one from the Form 4 topic , Coordinate Geometry .

For the first time in my life , a lizard dropped on my head . Believe me , I do not fear lizards but if a big black lizard went plonk on your head , you might freak out too .

My dad qualified for the trip to Chiang Mai and Madrid ! He's going to Chiang Mai on the 11th . A bad time though . But he deserves the trip . He might be going to Madrid 'cause he doesn't want to waste money there and he has back problems so he might be selling off the ticket .

My dad shaved his head . Bald . But not shiny bald . I almost cried when I saw him .

My trials kick start next week . I am very much ready - ready to flunk of course . Therefore , my parents are gonna skin me alive .

I got myself playing Neopets . Ohmyfuckinggawd I thought it was dead by now . The last time I opened my account was in the year 2005 . Why now of all times ? Distressing .

I appeared on Animax ! But it's for like , a second . Click here to vote for your favourite Seventeen model (I like Yip Kar Mun , she's adorable) and if you wanna see me - for just one second , there's a video player on the left of the page . There will be the numbers 1 , 2 and 3 under the player , just click on 1 to see me , yes , for only a second . So if I were you , I need not bother . But still , when do you get to see Denise on Animax ? Oh yeah , if you have Animax , you need not go through all that to see me , just switch Animax on on your Astro .

I didn't get to see Fayadh .

asoontobementalmaniac will be on a short term hiatus due to stupida Sudah Pasti Mati trials . But will blog whenever possible or necessary .

That is all for tonight .

Happy Belated Birthday Fayadh .

It's 4.55 am , 1st of September . I have already wished you on your birthday but I had the urge to post it on my blog as well and announce to my fellow bloggers that it is not only our National Day on the 31st of august but your birthday as well . Many do know that your birthday falls on this ... erm ... patriotic day but I still want to announce it anyway :)

I know you didn't have such a great day yesterday but lets just forget what happened and move on eh ? It's taking me quite a long time to finish typing this out . Firstly , because I'm having a massive headache and secondly , you seem to be chatting with me nonstop . So it's kinda hard to focus on finishing this post .

I can't believe a year has already passed since we got together . Despite the rough times we've had , the arguments , the break ups , we seem to have overcome all that and our weaknesses as well to stay together for this long . I'll let you in on a lil' secret , it's not easy ! I love love love love you , and come on - I would never ever forget your birthday no matter how forgetful I am babe . So don't play dumb with me :)

Again , Happy Belated 17th Birthday Fayadh Haznol bin Fahrurrazi . I love you and you know it !

PS : Some pictures you sent to me 10 minutes ago :)

This was taken by Phaik Imm on Shyuan's birthday in Domino's . Omfg sepet !

This was taken on Saturday by Yi Zhong in Sunway Pyramid's arcade :)


And yes , this final piece of art (cheh wahh) was snapped by yours truly on Saturday too - in Sunway Pyamid's very own Jusco with Yi Zhong in the middle munching on her sushi !

PPS : By the way , I started to type this out at 4.55 am . Now it's 5.20 am . Because Mr Fayadh was such a nuisance on msn :p Happy Birthday Bie <3